Thursday, November 8, 2012

39 + 1

Tomorrow, Nov. 9, is my 40th birthday.  I had planned to run 13.1 before 11am so I could cross "run a half marathon before I turn 40" of my runner's wish list.  But I realized after my bout with the flu (so bad I thought they might admit me to the hospital almost two weeks ago) that it was just that:  a wish.

It was a goal, but a wishful one at that.  I realized that running that 13.1 on a deadline makes as much sense as me entering the Miss America pageant.  None. What. So. Ever. 

I can run 13.1 anytime I want.  Anytime I want that is, when I am healthy.  I'm not.  Despite every effort I've made for almost 4 months to pretend that I am fine and good as new, I'm simply not.  And all that caught up to me in the most frightening way on October 28.

So for my 40th birthday I think I might get up early.  I'll run, make no mistake about that.  But I'll run a quiet 3-4 miles and just enjoy the run.  No pushing it, no worrying about my speed, my splits or average pace.  No, I won't even use my Nike +.  I'll just plug in the tunes and call it good.

After that, I probably won't think anything more about it being my birthday.  I'll be getting ready to celebrate another birthday: the inaugural Cause + Event Portland race on Sunday.  To be honest, I'm more excited about seeing the race than about celebrating my big 4-0.

Not that I'm bummed about turning forty, quite the opposite actually.  I'm healthier, fitter, and more active than I've ever been in my life.  I feel better about myself than I did a year ago.  I feel confident (like I could launch a nonprofit and a national race series confident) and that confidence has proven me to be right.  So far.

I'm ready to put a lid on my thirties.  As I've said they were some of the best and also some of the worst years of my life.  I'm embracing 40 with everything I am.  I look forward to being 40-something.  I'm gonna kick 40's ass.  Just sayin'. 

For the last remaining hours of my 30s I don't have much planned.  Gonna kiss my kids before I go to bed, have a snack and talk to my husband.  And tomorrow, I'll wake up and be 40 and life will go on, like it always does. 


Stephanie said...

You are an inspiration to all of us!

Amanda@runninghood said...

Happy Birthday! My bday is Nov 9th too. :)

Amy Little said...

Well Happy Birthday Amanda!!!! And thank you Steph...I'm humbled....